A day in parenthood

Last night I went to bed a little late. Not because I consciously did so, but because I was trying to finish part of a project I have been working on the last couple of weeks. It wasn't till I glanced up and looked at the clock did I realize it was 12:37. Well I immediately got up and shut down the house and closed my project.

Sleep is very important to my productivity on a normal day so with these extraordinary circumstances, well you know.

Last night, even though Barrett slept through the night, Addie had a nightmare. At about 5am she was knocking on my door. I was so tired I could barely comprehend what she was saying. I was able to make out "Can I be with you, Mama?"

Of course I agreed. She hoped on Jeremy's side of the bed, tried to chat with me, to which I promptly replied it was nighttime and to go to sleep. When I woke up to feed Barrett at about 7, she was sound asleep cuddled up as close to me as possible.

We ended up waking up about 8:15.

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I apparently wasn't paying enough attention to Addie when working on a different project. She came up to what I was working on and poured milk on it. At first thought it was an accident till I looked up and saw that she had done it intentionally. 

I took a moment of...course correction...and sent her to her room. Two minutes later I hear, "Mama, I happy. Can I please come down?" She had to wait her allotted 3 minutes before she came down.

I took those 3 minutes to re-prioritize what I was doing (also taking a moment to reflect on my own behavior) and put away what I was working on and then I opened my computer to lds.org and looked up controlling emotions. I came up with the talk "Agency and Anger" by Lynn G. Robbins (great talk by the way) and read "A cunning part of his [Satan] strategy is to dissociate anger from agency, making us believe that we are victims of an emotion that we cannot control.  

When Addie was allowed to come back down stairs, she got special Addie and Mommy time.

Please don't judge...I was taking the photo and don't actually look this big

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Today, Barrett had his 5 month check up (He is healthy and strong, by the way.) The doctor noticed that he is rather attached to me. I was like, "Well, ya, duh." 

She elaborated, saying that he looks at me and say "Mmma Mmmmo Mmma." She said that it was rather early for him to do that and that he must love his mama. 

Ever since she told me this I have noticed him doing it all day. I don't know why (okay maybe I do,) but this has made me smile each time.

I added this last photo for Jer -- Barrett was holding Addie's hand! So cute.